Date : Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Time : 5:23 AM
Title :

you know, sometimes i think i've been doing the very least to please you, please you in every single aspect. but right now, i guess ive been trying way too hard. im just tired, really tired lah khairul. not in a physical sense lah but rather mentally and emotionally. including today, i've known you for like almost 2 years, but actually 3 years to be exact, and i see everything going on the same as how it has always been. in a week, we can never not argue/quarrel even over the slightest things. i've worked hard, and sometimes really hard for this relationship. but im just not sure if you have. i try to keep my cool though i know ive lost it. i try not to get pissed or annoyed even when i know i will. i try to smile even when my emotions tell me not to. i try to talk to you even when i dont want to. i try to question you even when i know what's your reply gonna be like. i try not to get mad for long i try not to get you pissed i try to keep that smile on your face everytime i see you but i just dont really know why i fail. i try to please you, in every single way.
i try not to argue with you but i just cant help it. i try and until today, until just now that we met,i have never stopped trying. so do you get a clue how it hurts for me when everytime you see me with a frown on your face and when you answer me in a tone that i dont wanna hear? i know you really well but i still cant figured out why i still dont get you. and i know that you're reading this syg, but i just wanted you to changed. that's it. i dont expect too much from you.